Saturday, February 25, 2012
Well... it seem that whenever I am down...i always turn to my blog and yup today I am indeed down...
Things dun really seem right these past 1 month....in fact it was terrible and for me i really dunno who to talk to and so i guess i just type it out here...
Sometime i really admire people whom get to do things they enjoy doing and get to live the kinda life which is carefree...
For me..everything is ups and down and in fact if someone live my kinda life...in no time they die of heart attack..lolz...not that I am being exaggerated...indeed my life is just that full of ups and down....
I hope everything will return to normal soon...next time i will explain in great details about everything as now is still not the right time to do it...
To my reader...the only reader...eh you know who you are...lol..i know my blog sounded strange with no meaning...next time i'll tell you the full story when the times come=)
always waiting. -10:29 PM
Wednesday, February 15, 2012
Today was or shall i say yesterday? since it was past mid nite was Valentine's Day.. a day where most couple would be spending some romantic time together etc..Not that i am jealous or am i looking for a Valentine...
But all i wanna say is that i feel really tired. Tired of the fact that everything don't seems to turn out well.. its been like this since the past 1 month and i can literally feel the pressure that is building up...
While for me, as usual...cooped up alone and did not share my trouble with anyone..sometime you just dun feel like talking about it, especially so when it will make you feel more depressed when you are reminded of it.
It would be like rubbing salt on wound..yup..tats the best way to describe it...
Sometime i enjoy being alone but at times of trouble....just to sort things out myself...and i enjoy the still of night...
My fav time of the day? It would be at nightfall when everything seems more relax and peaceful....
Wonder how tomorrow will be? I really dun know about it..at one part I am looking forward to it while at another part I just hope that time will stop at this moment and not move because sometime as much as i am eager to know the future but there is one part of me that i guess can't accept the reality if things do not turn out the way i expected it to be
I guess..i just have to learn to be strong.....i'll try=p
always waiting. -3:37 AM
Friday, February 10, 2012
Been feeling rather tired and overwhelm lately....hope everything will be fine in the coming weeks *wishin & Hoping* so far things have been not that smooth lately....
I knows its kinda boring to read my post....lol...being that it is always about negative stuff and very seldom about good stuff....well i guess i dun really have much people to talk to and so at times when i am down and out....i talk to my blog...
This blog had been with me for many years....and had been quite a good listener..lol....anw..feeling tired now...Will update again..
Weekend is approaching....while most ppl feel hapi about it....i dun seem to feel anything at all...And Valentine's day approaching too...come to think of it....i have yet to celebrate Valentine's day before....is it really that romantic as like some ppl describe? Hmm...maybe next time I will know i guess....till then its the same living everyday in my own world...
always waiting. -3:48 AM
Wednesday, December 28, 2011
Sad=(
Been feeling rather down for the past 2 weeks and that all the delay had started to make me lose my motivation on things...I really hope that everything will go smoothly as planned as i am getting quite tired of all the delays after delays...
Sometime it is really disheartening when you have high hope on something and expected it to turn out well and all then all of a sudden everything failed and fall apart...
always waiting. -3:03 AM
Monday, October 31, 2011
=(
Sometime, i really wondered what I should do to make things right...it was all going well when right now, everything seems heywire....i am really feeling tired, especially for the past 1 week whereby quite a lot of stuff had happened..
And as you guess it right...so far none of it was good for this past 1 week.... and I have got to deal with all those unexpected surprises...surprises that can cause a heart attack..
It really makes me think that sometime it would be so great if I can just vanish into thin air and not have to face anything at all... Why can't i have the type of peace that people are having...why does everything have to be like a roller coaster of ups and down....
I am really tired of all these stuff
always waiting. -3:53 AM
Monday, October 17, 2011
mixed feeling
It's been a while since I last posted, I guess i only blog when i am feeling down or when something is bothering me. And right now it is exactly what is happening...seems like everything looks as thou it is fallin apart?
I really hope it is not the case....i been having these bad feeling for quite a while...one moment everything seems gd and well and the next moment everything seems like fallin apart...sighzzz
why can't everything be gd, stay gd and remain that way once and for all? i know i sound childish saying something like that..but i really can't help but feel this way...
About me...well I guess i am at a situation/environment whereby even though when i feel uncertain or no confidence or when I am afraid of something...i can't show it on my face....just to look strong? maybe i guess. Or is it due to situation? Yup, it is also one of the reason=)
I do admire people who can expressed their feelings and emotion freely and best of all still get accepted for doing so.....
As for me...i hope that all the dark cloud and storm will be gone soon and hopefully the rainbow will appear...
always waiting. -4:20 AM
Saturday, August 20, 2011
Its been a long time since i last post...many things happens..some good some bad...lolz...
As for today....i guess it is bad stuff that I wanna share....this week was well..more of a nightmare to me...as well as a big disappointment.
everything that was expected to takes place did not takes place and that it turn out to be a major setback.....feeling tired, down and out....I guess I just have to wait till the time comes...
somtime in life, it seems like the more you want to rush something, the more you would have to wait for it to happen..for me I really hate waiting...esp waiting with uncertainty...*sigh*
The weekend is here, which means i have to wait till the weekend is over before I get to know it...sianzz to the max...
Been working really hard on it and expecting everything to turn out as planned and on schedule...but in the end..everything went to the drain....suddenly all my enthu is gone and all the fire in me is being put out....feel very unmotivated to the max.....
Lets hope that tomorrow will be a better day for everyone....
always waiting. -4:00 AM
