Wednesday, December 18, 2013
Hi there my dear empty lonely blog who no ones read....i am back again and each time I am back blogging its always something not good...This time is the same also/
Things come to a standstill again now...everything that look good all turn bad and all seems to be in a mess...
what's look to be full of hope now seem hopeless and things that at first seems to work now all falls apart..I am really at wits end not knowing what to do except to wait and see
People whom used to be close to me and whom i regarded as my comrade fighting side by side is now drifting away and avoiding the problem in front, and worst of all, they are all living in their self create world leaving me with no one to turn to...how pathetic can it get?
While most people is in the Christmas and Chinese New Year mood, i am left with a doomsday approaching mood......
I juz wish that all these can end soon...i am really sick of all these things already...
always waiting. -12:21 AM
Saturday, July 13, 2013
Confused
For the past few weeks things dun seem to go very well... so lets just hope that this coming week everything will be going smoothly...
Feeling pretty tired of all that i had gone thru this couple of weeks...
As to what i am feeling right now...all i gotta say is that its definitely not fun to miss someone...oh man....been thinking of this particular person every day and nite.. she is the person that i tink of the 1st thing when i woke up...the last person in my mind before i went to bed...
Even a simple message from her made me feel happy...is this Love? or is the me being stupid and silly? I really don't know...but when i know she is happy, i feel happy....I hope i can get her out of my mind right now...so at least i wun feel so confuse.....
Honestly...i am a person who rather avoid love becuz i always sucks at it...its always the same thing happening...the person i luv always dun feel the same as i do and I am always the one who end up broken....
Sometime....its like when u fall down too often...it makes u afraid to even stand up and walk.....
always waiting. -3:07 AM
Saturday, June 29, 2013
June 2013
Been a long time since i last did a post...guess its because i only blog when things are bad...the past month had been quite fun...had a couple of first timess..from 1st time giving someone a present to well quite a few first time..
It was quite fun actually...and i had one hell of a shopping spree..ppl always say money isn't everything and stuff like that..well thats bullshit and ppl who said that ought to be shot...hahaha
If you are someone like me whom had experience being poor before..well having money is a dream come true...you can practically buy everything without looking at the bloody price tag..eat anything u wanna eat..its endless freedom & excitement.... And best of all..you can dress up and glam up and go down orchard road like a Rock Star and u see ppl looking at you and say..wow...look at that Rolex..look at that shades he is rocking..that big diamond etc...It juz feel damn great...
So to those who say money ain't everything...its either your dad/grandad is Bill Gates/Warren Buffet or you are juz simply dillusional and out of touch with the modern society we live in now...or maybe you are juz a broke ass sour grape...either way you ought to get shot dead...hahahaha
back to the current situation..well things dun always turn out well and right...juz like it ain't always sunshine and rainbow...everyone knows that..But when the bad things happen...its pretty hard to take it sometime...especially when all bad things come at once..its like problem & headache x10 which is pretty stressful to handle.
For me as usual...although i got many many friends in facebook...but i guess i seldom share my personal problem wif them and so when i got problem...i am always left with no one to talk to...only this blog...
Thanks to my friend whom inspire me to set up this blog many many years ago...dunno why..each time when i am down and out...you are always the first person I can think of...lolz.. anyway..i guess she is not prolly reading this blog anymore...besides who read my blog anyway since its neither fill with beautiful picture nor interesting stuff...
Alright..hope everything will be well again....
always waiting. -8:07 PM
Wednesday, October 31, 2012
Feeling lost with no one to confide...
Its that time again....these couple of days due to some external factors i had been feeling down and out almost everyday....i dun really know but i just kept having these confused and mixed feeling about various things.
As usual i try my best to stay strong and look happy but deep inside me, I do not feel right at all...and the worst thing is as usual which is it seems i do not have anyone to talk to..
I always hated such feeling of helplessness especially when everything seems out of my control...
day after day...week after week...waiting after waiting...i am really tired of everything..
Why has it always be this way?
always waiting. -3:15 AM
Tuesday, June 19, 2012
Shall do a short post about how things are recently..well all i gotta say is everything seems like a mess... In Forest Gump.. Tom hanks says Life is like a box of Chocolate...
I think life is bullshit...and more bullshit...i really can't understand how a supposely going as planned thingy can end up in a big mess and it is one mess after another...
Looks like life had repeat its nonsense on me and now everything start to come crumbling down on me again... But to be honest I ain't afraid and i dun give a hoot.
As usual..my question is where is god when you need him? Sleeping as usual I guess.... Or maybe God happens to love others more than they love me..this is why quite often my prayers are usually unanswer...
Maybe most people who live in their fairy tale world might choose to differ...well.. who cares man...I type what i like as i pleased... and i am just being honest... when ppl say FML alot of people do not know the real meaning and just type it simply to look cool... no one deserve to use the word FML more than I do... my life is really FML... to the max..
always waiting. -1:09 AM
Sunday, May 20, 2012
Random Silly Tots
I do believed that in this world everyone is meant to do something...no one is born to do nothing or be nothing...
the problem is honestly speaking, I am wondering what am I meant to be, at time i know what i want in life but sometime it really makes me think hard how am I going to achieve all that? I don't seem to be heading anywhere recently//
Everything was a mess since the beginning of this year, things that suppose to happen did not happen and things which I do not want it to happen just happens naturally. I am really sick and tired of it and also feeling angry and unjust about it
Yes, life is always unfair, some people had it all and still feel unhappy honestly people like that do not deserve to have anything...because they simply do not know how to treasure things because they got it the easy way.
While for Folks like me who work and think hard, end up something keep meeting with obstacles one after another and another.... I wanted very much to change the current situation and to improve everything, but I just hate to admit that it seems things are just beyond my control, everything seems to go autopilot and trust me, when life goes on an autopilot, it's always a bad thing..
In life one have to have as much control as possible, a great life is one that is on a Manuel Gear, Life on a Auto Gear is nightmare....
While Some people are doing well...as in those who love music got to release Records, those who love Sports became famous Sportsman, and recently you got that new Facebook ang moh in Singapore whom is every Singapore girl dream date Rich + Ang Moh = Singapore Girl Fav....LoLz
For me...i am still searching for myself....what am I meant to be? I think i am quite a flop..considering that at this hour i am actually thinking about stupid thing like that when most people are already living and breathing their dreams....
Sometime I hope life can be a dream.....a dream come true=)
always waiting. -5:31 AM
Wednesday, April 04, 2012
failure and failure...disappointment after disappointment...i am really starting to hate all these shit...life ain't great at all ....in fact its sucks big time
I am quite sick of all these...i jus hope all these nonsense will end once and for all...
Life is full of bullshit...and it ain't fun at all...
Now i am feeling that i am at the lowest point of all time..with all the bad things taking place all at the same time...while the good things all fail to materialise
what had the world become? I know it is always been unfair to me in most part of my life...But can't it change? I am working hard on it...but no matter how hard i work it seems that nothing is working out..
I know i am complaining here like some losers...but who cares...if i do not say it out here...i am even a bigger loser.....
While most of my friend enjoy a carefree lifestyle and some are bless with affluent background..for me its always a hell of a roller coaster ride....
always waiting. -4:01 AM
